Ive been looking through tumblr looking at all these “perfect girls” with flat stomachs and thigh gaps, so im all like,
“I want that!”
So I tried restricting myself to 1200 calories a day for 3 weeks. After 3 hours of vegetables and no junk food I gave up.
Now im eating everything in my pantry⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ “Man I wanted that gap…”
Once upon a time I posted this picture on Facebook, I was extremely weight conscious at the time and believed I was fat due to being over 8st.. It took mere minutes before I was bombarded with comments about how ‘digusting’ I looked and how ‘fat’ I’d gotten.
Looking back years later I was not fat. I was healthy. And yet they didn’t see because their idea of ‘thin’ was for ribs to protrude from their bodies and for waists to be pinched in to nothing.
I used to purge. There. I’ve said it.. I felt so fat I resorted to placing my fingers in my mouth and forcing myself to vomit in order to remain thin.. and it disgusts me that society let me down so much that I went to that measure to be excepted.
I know I am not thin. I am okay with this factor, I understand though now that I am not healthy either which is something I would very much like to alter.
someday I hope the girls that called me fat learn to except what a woman looks like. And I’m not saying being thin is bad because I know that some women are just naturally skinny, but embracing your body should be something we all learn to do, and despite the fact I’ve not yet excepted mine I’m trying, and that’s all I can do.
- Beckie x